Now everyone in Utah can get married equally! I am so happy, I got to co-officiate my first marriage today, of two of my best friends and my heart is full.
Also, it seems Ryan and I are back together. Not sure what that says about the price of rice in China, but it feels right.
My very favorite part of my job (which is becoming very stressful) is the third thing I do when I get there is kick off my shoes, and nobody gives a flying fuck. In fact I got a 1 (best #) on professional appearance.
I got a 2 on adaptability, and I’m still a little peeved about that. I mean, rolling the fuck with it and not freaking out is my número uno strong suit.
Sigh. A 2 is almost perfect, but motherfuckers, I wanted perfect!
I’m burnt out at work.
I mentally feel like dog poo this week. Like super low.
I want to be in my own house, and my own bed, I’m tired of house sitting.
When I started this job, I accepted a starting wage 2$ an hour less than what my lowest acceptable rate was BECAUSE they explained the bonus structure would make up at least tat 2$ an hour. I’ve been here four months and there is no bonus structure. It was a lie. They were trying to implement one, but it appears they have dropped the ball.
I did get a raise at my review last week, and it will backdate to my 3 month point, but meh, whatever.
Also, I will be the boss of my department by Jan, and I have been slowly taking on responsibilities for that, so I’m starting to get a bit overwhelmed.
My lesbian work wife is being kind of a bitch. She is wishy-washy and talks about people behind their backs. I naïvely thought we were friends, but I think I’m really just a target.
I just wanna throw in the towel.
I don’t know what I’m going through, same old shit I guess.
I hate everything about me lately, it seems like I am slipping on every front.
Maybe it’s some sort of midlife crisis, maybe I’ll just never kick the depression, I don’t know, but it really sucks.
I had a lot of fun out Friday night. That being said, I should probably stop drinking all together.
I need to start cooking again. And cleaning, I really need to get things clean and keep them that way. And exercising, I know for sure that would make me feel better.